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Every once in a while I get this odd feeling, where I feel detached from my surroundings - almost like I'm an observer, watching everything happen around me, rather than a participant in what's happening. When I get into this detached mode, nothing seems to make sense, or more to the point, nothing seems to ultimately have a meaning... the normal everyday things people do to get to some goal whether it be to accumulate wealth, be loved, gain knowledge, recognition etc. it just all seems meaningless... you get it all.. then what?? Then nothing.

Maybe that's the only truth in life; everything leads to nothing. Unless of course, you believe you're gonna die and go to some eternal heaven or eternal hell.. but even then.. then what?? you just live forever and ever, and whether it's an eternity of punishment or relaxation, you'll end up living the ultimate form of vacuousness (is that a word?). I love life, despite not understanding the point of it, and part of that love is probably due to the knowledge that I have a limited amount of time to live it... but living it forever is too long, why are people so attracted to forever anyway??

Whatever.. this is becoming pointless babble. I need coffee.